soon found out I was losing my mind

Work, while stressful and busy beyond belief is suddenly the one and almost only thing that makes me happy. I suddenly have developed some super human power to get everything done quicker than I ever have before and right on the heels of one coworker getting laid off(she will not be replaced) and yet another getting fired. So if there is a divine being or force, maybe just maybe it likes me

Aside from that I am a wreck. To say the very least.

I feel as though everything and anything else is totally out of control
And I am grasping for something to hold on to. And for the time being, feeling like the teacher's pet in first grade where my name was on a board with starts or whatever the fuck else, work satisfies that need. At least I am in the driver's seat and not failing and not being able so much as hold on.  In pretty much all aspects of my life. Family, personal, internal and so on.
So I grab on to work like a security blanket. For I need something to be constant and real and there. This year seems as though it will be one of letting go of things no matter how hard I do not want to. My Grandmother's health is not so good, and she has so many problems it is only a matter of time.
I only have a couple friends I truly trust and feel comfortable close by. 
Other feelings I have I do not know what to do with cause, my mind is convinced either way I will only experience pain. So I struggle daily with how to handle them.

Heartofglas01

And that would be me...with my "heart of glass"

My stomach is killing me and is inflated as though I swallowed a damn balloon
Reflux + estrogen= clothes hurting and cranky uncomfortable me.
Excuse my red eyes.
I got all of like two hours sleep.
Don't ask..